Last week wasn’t great. I gamed too much. It affected my sleep. This week I’m looking to do better on that front. It helps that I have less to do from now on in terms of post-op care, so I generally have more free time in the evening/night and I don’t need to push my time so much. A pre-scheduled visit to the doctor went well this weekend.
I am going to my favourite city at the end of this month. It won’t be a very long visit – 3 days cushioned by a day of travel on each side (yeah I absolutely hate it). Wondering what to do. Of course I will do my favourite things and visit my favourite spots, but I also want to mix some new things in it.
I’ve been very sad about my dating life lately. I’m not happy with Nomi. I think she’s great, but she’s just not for me. It’s hard picking between this-is-who-she-is-today vs. this-is who-she-can-be. Reality vs. potential. I’m kinda having trouble walking away.
Well, it helps to remind myself that I can choose to invest more time in other things – more friendships, old and new hobbies, perhaps a new dating prospect. But I want to wait on this until I feel mentally more relaxed about it, and move to the big city as well. Which is not so far away now – only about 3-4 months! Which means house hunting has to begin soon-ish. That will definitely make dating much easier, just being close to people and places and events.
Trouble is there aren’t many ace people with pretty much zero libido as well, who are also wlw. And then accepting of me. And compatible with me. The odds are, and for the first time in a long time I can say I mean this, astronomically low.
My mood is astronomically low. I want a partner…