Ten days.

That’s how long it has been since I last wrote here. Which it doesn’t feel like it’s been that long, because I have been air-writing something or the other in my head for this blog for almost each one of those last ten days.

In the picture, you see a Barbie coaster I requested I take home from a restaurant (they gave it to me for free), a “Beans & Besties” sticker this coffee chain gave me and Olivia on Friendship Day (I wasn’t aware it was Friendship Day), and a candle holder I have just started using for scented candles (post-surgery after-care mood-setting).

I think the candle holder I am going to use with different scents. It might be nice to have different scents for different moods. And just have something…very physical/present to calm my mind down. Like a smell. We are creatures of senses, right?

It’s a little strange with Olivia for me. I want to hang out with her, like, all the time. There’s a certain pull, even if only as a friend. I am working on expending some more energy in making a new friend (Maddy), and have recently matched with someone on Bumble too (May) for whom “no sex” is not a deal-breaker. We’re giving it a try. Shall meet soon, too, I hope. Anyway, the idea with that is to spread my needs around. Therapist said this will go some way in fixing the feeling I have with Olivia.

I have a new “People” page because it was hard to always link back to the first post where I mentioned a person. If someone becomes important enough, I will stick them in there so you can see who I am talking of. :))

I have so much to share, and perhaps I don’t know the best things to share, but this is it for now. I need to go and work.

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