i’m at a café-restaurant today. it’s a holiday and i like to make the most of my holidays because that’s all the will that’s left in my life anymore.

lots of things to do this weekend. i’ll get the car firmware checked out today and look at a monitor to make work easier during the week (and play games!). a 13″ screen just isn’t it as much as i want it to be.

i live in a small town and it was very apparent today. i couldn’t find any cafe that wouldn’t play (loud) music but also serve alcohol (cocktails and wine). i just want to relax and unwind a little… in lieu of this terrible situation, i bought some white wine that i’ll try to enjoy at home. it sucks because i enjoy my buzz outside, not at home.

i miss hanging out with nomi. this whole thing has a put in my past vibe to it and I’M HERE FOR IT. i still respond to her texts etc. but i leave it up to her to text first. she’s been unable to meet a couple of times in recent weeks so now that too is up to her to suggest something.

adult dating is fucking horrible.

ok. watching Invasion on Apple TV these days. i have some stroganoff and masala chai to enjoy while i watch it. see you next time!!

🎧 The National — Your Mind Is Not Your Friend (feat. Phoebe Bridgers)