I miss writing. Not necessarily here, but anywhere: the journal on my smartphone, to friends, and here. I read back some diary entries I had written when I first got my new phone almost 3 years ago. I had added some “real” photos in it too. It was so nostalgic to read through it! The separation was a major theme. I’m past that now. Yet, with the me of today reading it, it was very interesting in that way.

I’ve been so consumed by my routines recently. It starts with a bit of TV, getting ready for work, and usually ends in gaming at night, something I am doing less and less as fewer and fewer people/friends show up for it. It’s a group activity for me. That’s what I enjoy most: banter, and camaraderie. Still, the routine leaves little room for spontaneous on the weekday. And weekends are spent catching up with life a little bit, resting a little bit, and meeting a friend or two.

Routines… that reminds me! I haven’t been to the theater in a bit. There’s been no good movies up. And I’d go for half-good, even. I went for Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret. a while back. I didn’t think it would fit me, but I went anyway because I thought it’d be half good. And it was fun! So, you see, I’m willing to give a chance, that’s not what’s lacking here. There just are no good movies up.

The Wild Robot seems interesting, though. Maybe this weekend might be slightly different, slightly like the old ones.

Work has been stressful, but good. I’ve been productive. Just about keeping up. Things feel thrilling. If only because I’m scared of not being able to make rent. That has been missing for possibly a year?

I should update my profile on AceSpace. I have given up, for now, any hope of finding a partner. It’s not easy to love a body (and mind) like mine. It’s not. I know that. And perhaps, I need to temper my wants out of life to that effect. AceSpace I think is a decent community. I could make that my modern-day Facebook, just with aro-ace people.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what life should look like, or what I want out of it over the next 2 or 3 years. It’s been… challenging to clear my head on this front.

Hopefully, things will start to make more and more sense. I’m a thinker. Thinking should do it, yeah?