I’m binging on these unhealthy snacks. And I should stop. And sometimes my will power is enough, sometimes it is not. I have a cold and I’m also drinking milk tea — something I am now trying to reduce in a bid to have fewer calories overall. But I am sick so it’s okay.

Did I tell you I’ve started counting my calories a little bit lately? It helps paint me a picture. It’s a warning sign to the warning signs going off in my body. I need to do my body better. I puked so much at the holiday I took. I’ve sworn off alcohol for now. It’s calories, it’s… a lot of bad things. And my liver needs this break, too. Maybe in a few months my body will tell me I can have a cocktail here and there. But for now, my body is telling me I need to stop. Altogether. So I am. I am listening.

My brain is also telling me to stop snacking so much. Find better alternatives. And I will. It’s just these chemicals in all this fast food stuff… they make you addicted. I am blaming these corporations, okay? I just need one good run over a couple of weeks and I’ll be good. It’s like an addiction, and that sucks so much. What kind of world are we in?

I’ve been so sick recently. Going to work every day is so hard. I want to talk about it, but I’ve already used enough spoons getting this blog post to this point…

Sigh.

I hope you are well. And I’ll try and write again soon.